But a princess nonetheless
Ugh. I am such a fricking dork.
Went to Lug@GT with Jason, and we met up with Heidi there. Everyone was very nice, and really smart, and it was a wacky ass experience. Just how I like it. They are having an InstallFest on saturday. I think everyone should come. Sifl [my linux at home] is a big jacked up mess. I need to reinstall him. I also need a new harddrive to do that, so I can do a little switching, etc and do a big backup type thing. I'm gonna order this cheapo premade PC from ginstar and go pick it up satruday morning before the fun. God. Me and my computers. How did this happen? I - like most people - am subscribed to a ridiculous amount of mailing lists. One of them is Emmy Lewis' Perl/PHP list, and it had this article about easy mysql tables, records, etc. I really want to do that, but I'm hesitant to get too involved right before an impending reformatting. I need to make a list of all the things that sifl does for me now, so I can evaluate my confidence in getting it all to work again. As much as it may make some people cringe, I still use and love windows. I use win2k and I have for a while now, and I really really love it. I need windows for my macromedia addiction and some other stuff, so, I want it. I don't ever use xwindows on linux, except for the lovely screensaver action, so windows is windows and linux is ummm....hard.
Thursday 06.09.2001 4:07 PM
I'm in the office. On a saturday. It's not too bad, actually. My company moved to another location. And it's just lovely. It's huge - an entire city block. I have an office. With a window. Mmmmm. It's nice and big and happy. My trip to San Francisco was quite eventful. The gothy types there are really weird. Went to Death Guild it was really goth. Not like here, where for the most part goth means industrial/fetish/ebm/synth/electro. They played Temple of Love by SoM and people swooned and rushed to the dancefloor. It was odd. I don't think I've ever seen that here. But I never go to Belfry at nomenclature, so I don't have a full picture I suppose. They also played Tori Amos and countless Siouxsie songs. Which people seemed to really be into. The guys there were half trolls and half perfect. Lots of shirt and tie boys. Not the cheesy, gimpy kind...but the slick, young hip, monochrome shirt and tie kind. I was impressed. The girls were unremarkable. Not like here where they're all complete hotties. Anyway, I'm back...I have tons and tons of work to do. Come by and visit me at work. See my office - be jealous.
Saturday 25.08.2001 3:03 PM
Ok, I'm going to San Francisco tomorrow morning. I'm a little nervous, but, I'm cool and resourceful and handled lots of time in Europe with mean frenchmen and violent British soccer hooligans, I think I can handle a little california. The AE is away. Which is why I'm going away. Can't be here and sad and confused for 3 days while he's having fun. Despite his constant protesting that it won't be fun - I know he's having fun right this moment, in fact. I have so much to do. I must make a list:

-Take Suede to Stef's [ie, dog to grandma's]
-laundry, pack, clean room
-make CDs to listen to
-Find gift for child
-go to Cyberia
-Have fun, stop dwelling.

I think that about covers it. Need to remember so many things. I used to make lists, but I stopped because I got overly obsessive with them and would document every single thing I needed to do. It didn't make me more organized, it made me feel overwhelmed and upset. No more overwhelmed and upset. I am determined to have unfettered fun, despite all obstacles. This weekend had the setup to be ruinous. But, I figured someting out - a way to handle it. Maybe not the best way, and not the way I can take advantage of every single time. But, its the best thing I could think of on short notice. I'm excited. I will bring back gifts.

I've been spending a lot of time with Heather lately. I just love her so. Had lunch with Michele and Jason yesterday. I'm so happy around my friends. They really make things a lot better. I like not being afraid. I used to worry about the things I said. But, now in many ways, I don't care what people know about me. I told the atl-dulles flight story twice yesterday. In vivid detail. Its a good story, it should be recounted to the masses, for their enjoyment.

Miss the AE already. He said yesterday that we were "kicking it old school". We were, and it rocked. That's really how we should try to exist. We're good at that. I like being good at things with someone. It's really satisfying.

Friday 17.08.2001
I would like to please kill ATT. The AE was messing with sifl last night and it appeared some weird crazy bad stuff was going on. They blocked all incoming traffic on port 80. Because of the damned Code Red worm. I am so pissed. It's a windows thing. I don't have a windows machine directly connected to it. I run apache, not IIS. I'm safe, I'm safe, damn it! I am so pissed. Here is the FAQ info, if you're an ATT cable customer. Their website is all sorts of messed up. It's all like redirected URLs and non stop frames, so I can't find the actual URL. But, basically, things are completely screwed. I'm just furious. "Dear god, I know I haven't been the best christian, but can you please please let them re-allow inbound traffic on port 80? I promise I will be good." Anyway, I can change everything to port 81. Which would be a pain, but I may have to do it if they don't reallow inbound web stuff. God. This is the last thing I want to deal with right now. Sigh.
Wednesday 08.08.2001 11:03 AM
Mmmm. So hard to be narrative when I am thinking abstractly. Sick Rick BT™ says I'm an abstract thinker. Heh. Woo. Ok, so...I went over to the new location to see the T1 being installed. We're getting it from XO communications. So, as I was driving over, one block up I see an XO van pulled over in a parking lot, and the person driving it is sort of bent over looking around at the bumper. Hrm...looks like a case of someone "following too close" and I should know as I've hit people doing that 4, count 'em - 4 -times. So, I pull over, and its this woman, wow! And I say "are you supposed to be installing a T1 in that building?" pointing at our new building. She says yes and that someone hit her and drove off. She called the police and was waiting for them, and would come do the installation when the police got there. So, I go meander around the new building, lick the walls of the new server room, etc. It wasn't too eventful, but construction workers oogling me right after I break up with my boyfriend kind of makes it seem ok. I wore a short skirt and high heels today 'cause that sort of makes me feel better too. So, anyway, she comes and installs the router and bolts it to the wall and stuff. She was uber nice and friendly. I really appreciate it when people speak on a level that is appropriate with me. There are a lot of things I don't know, and I've found, through dealings with the AE that its entirely possible to explain something to someone, and not make them feel incredibly stupid. As she's waiting on the phone with bellsouth to make sure everything is correct, I look in one of the offices and notice that my ethernet connections are half way in. The connections are there, they've just not finished with the faceplates, etc. I notice one of the guys messing with them. I talked to them for a minute, and it looks like all the internal networking stuff will be done sometime this week. This makes me happy. Anyway, the AE says T1 installation is boring or something, but I still found it happy and exciting.
Tuesday 07.08.2001 1:07 PM