Mmmm. So hard to be narrative when I am thinking abstractly. Sick
Rick BT™ says I'm an abstract thinker. Heh. Woo. Ok, so...I
went over to the new location to see the T1 being installed. We're
getting it from XO communications.
So, as I was driving over, one block up I see an XO van pulled over
in a parking lot, and the person driving it is sort of bent over
looking around at the bumper. Hrm...looks like a case of someone
"following too close" and I should know as I've hit people
doing that 4, count 'em - 4 -times. So, I pull over, and its this
woman, wow! And I say "are you supposed to be installing a
T1 in that building?" pointing at our new building. She says
yes and that someone hit her and drove off. She called the police
and was waiting for them, and would come do the installation when
the police got there. So, I go meander around the new building,
lick the walls of the new server room, etc. It wasn't too eventful,
but construction workers oogling me right after I break up with
my boyfriend kind of makes it seem ok. I wore a short skirt and
high heels today 'cause that sort of makes me feel better too. So,
anyway, she comes and installs the router and bolts it to the wall
and stuff. She was uber nice and friendly. I really appreciate it
when people speak on a level that is appropriate with me. There
are a lot of things I don't know, and I've found, through dealings
with the AE that its entirely possible to explain something to someone,
and not make them feel incredibly stupid. As she's waiting on the
phone with bellsouth to make sure everything is correct, I look
in one of the offices and notice that my ethernet connections are
half way in. The connections are there, they've just not finished
with the faceplates, etc. I notice one of the guys messing with
them. I talked to them for a minute, and it looks like all the internal
networking stuff will be done sometime this week. This makes me
happy. Anyway, the AE says T1 installation is boring or something,
but I still found it happy and exciting. |
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Tuesday 07.08.2001 1:07 PM
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Really stressed out. Have to go check out the T1 installation today.
I'm afraid there will be a conflict with Bellsouth, and the telephone
connections. I think that they may have alotted channels incorrectly.
There is nothing more fun than worrying about things. Love it. The
AE makes me feel non stop better though. And I really appreciate
it. Heather rocks too. The two of them together....wow. Scary. Heh.
Thinking about going to that new club night at Chaos Foundry or
whatever. I haven't been yet. I think tonight is the third week.
I have to bring some stuff over to Josh's tonight. That is going
to be horrible. I am terrified. Ugh. If you know me from IRC, check
this out. Heh.
Ok, going to see some hot uber internet connection action. Mmmm,
that sort of stuf always makes me feel better. |
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Tuesday 07.08.2001 10:51 AM
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Mmmm. Enjoying some delicious later Morrissey MP3s. God. He's amazing.
Found a great live version of "Satan Rejected my Soul."
Makes me giggle. If you ever for one moment think "Ugh, Morrissey
is depressing, whiney and horrible." You just don't understand
him. He's almost as funny as I am. And that's pretty damn funny.
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Thursday 02.08.2001 5:09 PM
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OH MY GOD! Liam Lynch sent me email! I can't believe it.
I am so cool! Wow. Email from Liam
Lynch!!! I sent email to the sifl and olly site about naming
my computers Sifl, Olly and Chester*, and telling him about this
link that Jason sent me, to an o'reilly book about web design that
has images from sifl and olly's website as examples. And Liam Lynch
himself replied! This is amazing. I just can't believe it! My life
is validated! Wow. Liam Lynch is one of the creators of Sifl &
Olly. I know most of you don't know anything about Sifl
& Olly, and a sad fact is that unless you come to my house
and watch my super special video I made, you probably never will.
Sifl and Olly was revolutionary, delicious, hilarious, perfect television.
It
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| Click Liam! |
was so incredible and satisfying and happy. So, of course MTVstopped
airing it. They kill all things that are good. Sigh. I just loved
them. I love Chester most of all though. Sigh. There are tons of
Sifl & Olly websites to be had, just go search google
for them if you're interested. The sockfest
2001 is in Nashville next weekend and Jason and I had planned
to go, but I'm a little sick right now, so we decided against it.
Gosh. Now I really wanna go 'cause LIAM LYNCH SENT ME EMAIL!
YEA!!! This is just
what I needed. Tee hee! So, I'm hoping to convince Jason to
go with me like, just for one night and then come back. God. I need
to hang out with Chester and steal his cereal. Liam Lynch sent me
email! Rock!
In honor of Liam sending me email, I put up some S&O
mp3s on sifl I hope I do not get sued.
*Sifl is slackware
linux that hosts my pr0n and some other stuff here at the apartment,
Olly is win2k at my apartment and Chester is the Redhat server I
run at work. Jason helped with the naming scheme. |
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Wednesday 01.08.2001 7:52 PM
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Damn. I woke up with a headache. It's such a defeated feeling. I
always thought sleep cured headaches. Waking up with one sort of
says; the world is not good, Sherrod. The world is bad. All the
happy endings are lies. You'll be miserable forever and then have
a headache when you wake up. Sigh.
I have so many things to do today. I found a tutorial that walks
you through setting up Apache, PHP and mysql and then how to create
a webinterfaced database all in 11 pages. I printed it and read
it in the bath tub last night. I told Jason that and he asked me
what was wrong with me. What are people supposed to read in the
bathtub? Romance novels? I wouldn't want to get a book wet, so,
this little stack of pages seemed like the perfect thing. Maybe
there is something wrong with me. I don't know. I haven't talked
to Geoff H in a while. I'm sure he's busy being a genius and all.
I feel now more than ever like I can't talk to anyone. Its very
difficult. I feel like people don't understand me, or relate to
me at all. I've felt that way for a really long time. When I found
out that Sko:t was drinking it really crushed me. The whole reason
I emailed him was to get some insight from someone who was always
really harsh with me, but completely earned my respect. He used
to slam on the former sXe kids, or talk about how much of a commitment
it is. Hearing someone you respect talk about how horrible smoking
or drinking is, really makes you never ever want to do that. And
then, Wilson going on and on about when I turn 21 I'll start drinking.
I'm 23 now, and still a haughty bitch. Heh. Anyway, its been like
two months and I'm still confused and disillusioned that Scott is
drinking. I don't know what to do. I feel like I should do something.
But, he hates me. And he hates life too, it seems. Not to mention,
I'm sure he sees some sort of irrevocable defeat in breaking a commitment
that was supposed to be forever. And hence hates himself. Wow. Difficult.
I'm not as disappointed in him, - I haven't seen him in years, eventhough
he lives in Atlanta - as I am in the world. That was a really life-altering
realization. If Scott can start going to bars and getting drunk,
any of the most horrible things are possible. Sigh. On a lighter
note, Heather just told me that she's about to get naked and cover
herself in sour cream. God. My friends are cool. |
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Saturday 01.09.2001 10:56 AM
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Downloaded something from freshmeat that I think may work for me.
It's called My
Secret Diary and appears to be formulated by some crazy german.
It's all in PHP and seems to be functioning
quite well on sifl. There is not a whole lot of doumentation
or instruction. There is an example
of it that looks like exactly what I want as far as functionality
goes. It's all file based, no db. So, that means I can hold off
on the scary mysql action until later this week, if I get a chance.
Installing a database scares the hell out of me. I don't really
know anything about it. This thing has a place for comments and
easy linking and image display, as well as offline editing and some
other neat features. I haven't even began what looks to be a lengthy
and painful configuration process, but as they say - if you want
something done right, do it yourself. I think I can install it into
a couple of different directories and let other people use it if
they want to. Livejournal has been so terrible and freaky. I will
never have the resources they have, but at the same time I would
know not to host hundreds of thousands of weblogs for free. Ugh.
Why do you have to pay money to save them space? That makes no sense
at all. At all! Grrr. Speaking of other people, I'd really like
to host a non-critical domain at the apt, and see how it goes. Jason
said that was one of the hardest things to do in apache. Of course,
there are lots of other people who say it's not hard at all. I need
to understand how to that both with a pseudo-static IP and with
multiple IPs pointing to different domains on the same server. I
also think it may be a good idea to run DNS on sifl. I was having
some problems with my connection last night, and talked to Urchlay
about it, and I think that ATT's dns servers are all crappy and
yuck. No good. Will surrmount. Maybe I can talk heather into registering
pinkhairedheather.com or something. muffintop.com? washatbutt.com?
cheekbones.com? |
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Thursday 30.08.2001 5:26 PM
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I am working on PHP, and of course distracted. I found this
and am listening to some of it that I found on Morpheus. It's just
beautiful. I am so impressed. The InSoc cover of One just makes
me melt. Maybe I will put it up for download on sifl. God, it's
really evocative. |
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Sunday 29.07.2001 12:29 AM
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This is how much of a loser I am. I just installed PHP the other
night on my linux
machine, so I'm going through the specs compairing my install
and options to the options supported by dreamhost
the company that hosts this site. I think I did a pretty good
job. There were two lines in Apache I forgot to comment on, and
had to have schwack help me with that, but now it appears to be
all set up and happy. Heh. Click the little thumbnail to see the
little test file I made. Yea! I feel really accomplished. I want
PHP to work becauase, livejournal
is basically dead as far as I can tell. I will admit that I'm
suffering some pretty serious withdrawl. I need to vent, and talk
about stupid things. I need to see what wacky stuff my friends
are up to. But it looks pretty much like a lost cause. I know
this seems really sinful, but I don't understand why they don't
just sell advertising. I need to comb through freshmeat
for some kind of PHP based journal type thing that I can host
here, but update anywhere without having to use FTP and dreamweaver
everytime. I'd also like a way for people to make comments.
Oh, isn't life just difficult for little me. All I ever said on
my lj was how stressed out I am. So, I guess I will mention yet
again, thats I'm really stressed out. Ugh.
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