Ugh. I am such a fricking dork.

Wow, three updates in one day. I just realized that my birthday is tuesday. Please buy me gifts. What I really want is a new computer to run debian on with x, and a new job. Preferably the new job.
Thursday 31.01.2002 2:02 PM

Jason just sent me a screenshot from his desktop at school. Heh. He is a d0rk. Neither of us use KDE, but we were talking about it at last night's lug presentation. I think KDE is pretty cool, despite the fact that I've only read about it, and never actually used it. I am going to spend some time removing packages so I can make room for it. I don't think I need an MP3 player on FreeBSD. I mean, I don't even have speakers.
Thursday 31.01.2002 12:51 PM

I'm in a really good mood this morning. Lug last night was fun. I am really looking forward to installfest. I need to flyer some more tonight. I want it to be well attended. Although, sharing the collective brain power of the lug makes me jealous. I need it all for my super reet, super fux0red computer. There have been a lot of ipaq troubles cropping up lately. Its funny. Makes me laugh. I just don't find those sort of things appealing. Laptops, PDAs, feh. I just need my tiny little cell phone and that's it. Little computers do not go well with fur coats and sparkly jewels.

I have a new crush. I think the system will now rotate on a daily basis instead of weekly. Sonny spurned my advances despite my impressive collection of 'sploits and root kits. So, I found someone else. I predict he lasts a week.

Will concentrate on subnetting math for the weekend. I need to become a genius with it. Many people say "I'm not good with math," but, I don't think anyone truly exemplifies that statement the way I do. If there are numbers, I begin to cry. I got some example cisco rules. They look sort of famaliar, but far too simple. I still believe in letting a computer do the routing and the firewalling and the natting and the dhcp leasing. It seems unnatural to let anything else do it. I'll read up on it I guess. BSDiva.com email appears to be working. Shockingly. I need to edit some sendmail files, but, I'm going to wait to do that until the MX record change propagates. So, if you're sweet, I will give you a BSDiva.com email. If you're a misogynist asshole, I will stab you repeatedly with my scissors. BSDiva.com also currently has one user. I am so happy. Things seem to be going quite well for her. I am hosting images. It rocks, and I feel accomplished. I even set it up so she could scp, but not shell in. How cool, eh?

Someone emailed me the most delicious job posting. It sounds exactly like what I want to do. Except the last line where it goes into all the versions of HP-UX the candidate should be expertly versed in. Heh. Oh well. Maybe I will just give up on this whole technology business and go work at M.A.C. Mmmmm. Hire me: I know about makeup AND firewall rules!

Thursday 31.01.2002 11:08 AM

In a good mood. Not sure why. Sifl is being so great lately. So many things working perfectly. I have a FreeBSD4.5 CD in the mail on they way to me. I can't decide what I'm going to do. I want to change the way my firewalling works, its a big mess right now. But, I have so many things installed and nicely configured, etc. It will be a lot of backing up to do. I should make a check list or something. I want KDE now too. I love sifl so much. He's really been perfect. Its very happy. I also still want a debian machine. But, so many people are defecting from debian because its not very current. Slackware? Ugh god. I really don't ever want to use slackware again. I'd use Mandrake before I'd use Slackware again. Anyway, lug tonight. I need to think of the questions I will ask. I also want to get there early so I can sit next to Sonny. Heh. He's the president of my heart.
Wednesday 30.01.2002 2:57 PM

Thank god for Adam. One day I will go up to Canada and marry him so he can finally be an American citizen. Sigh.

Sherrod : Sniffle. Fix me.
Adam : What's wrong?
Sherrod : unhappy
Adam : I can't fix that.
Sherrod : please?
Adam : It's not like I wouldn't... I can't.
Sherrod : Tell me you love me.
Adam : I do love you.
Sherrod : yea! Can I put this on gv.com?
Adam : Of course...
Wednesday 30.01.2002 0:33 AM

This is not a Jesus and Mary Chain song. "My life sucks, la la la. My life sucks. I signed a lease. For a year. But now I want to move."
Wednesday 30.01.2002 0:05 AM

It was an incredibly beautiful day today. Sunshiney, and I got to wear pink and feel like spring. Went to lunch with the venerable Jason. I can't really talk about that experience here, but I'm sure all of our friends will hear about it for years to come. It was quite interesting. I got mysql installed on sifl last night. I just used ports, and it seems to have worked, but I don't really know how to test it. Next I will get working on famaliarizing myself with PHP-Nuke. Installfest is fast approaching. I need to work more on flyers and spreading them around. I have always made sure to not be involved in promoting club land type things, so I don't really know what I'm doing as far as making them. But, I think if I personally hand them out with my winning smile and kookiness, its sure to be well-attended. You should come.
Monday 28.01.2002 6:29 PM

suede guarding the technology. She's an information security expert
sifl and olly
sifl

Last night definitely did not go as planned. I love my roommate, but he really just doesn't have the skill for rallying the troops that I do. Can't let people choose their own destiny. That prevents you from choosing your's.

Started cleaning the apartment a little. Jason and I's birthdays are coming up, so, I figured we'll be having people over and I should probably do something about the mess. Took pictures of the computers. Sifl is on the left, olly is on the right. Sifl does the server work, olly does the windows fun. Aren't they pretty? Heh. Need another machine for debian. I want something around a 400mhz, at least 32mb ram, so I could upgrade to 256. A 7gb harddrive and a decent video card because I want to run X. I keep getting out bid on ebay. I think I might have my price expectations too low. I don't want to spend more than $200 including shipping. I really do not want to build one myself, I think that will put me out of the price point I want, and I'm so picky, it would take me months to find the exact parts I want. Sigh. I've been listening to a lot of Jane Jensen lately as well as Gorillaz and Portishead. I have so much to do. Wish someone would come over and talk to me. I made french fries about an hour ago. Food of the gods. I burnt my finger on the oven rack. Then when I put them on the plate I didn't really want to eat them. It was probably more satisfying to throw them to Suede and watch her try to catch them. She's a good catch, that dog.

I'm excited about being able to add January 2002 to the archives. I think that will be a good experience. I like the new layout. I haven't finished so many of the sections though. I can't believe how I always feel like I have a million things to do, yet also live I haven't accomplished anything. This is what makes people go crazy.

Saturday 26.01.2002 5:07 PM

Rocking out to some Madonna at work. Love her old stuff. "Get into the Groove" and "Burnin' up" are my favourites. Had a terrible morning. Got
Come install something ya pansy
fliers done for the install fest. I need to make more. The ones I made are VERY boring. But, I figured that just the basic information was all that was needed for these. They are going to be distributed to all the kids in the dorms so that they will know its install fest time. I am going to make some cool conceptual ones as soon as I can. I really need to get more people outon the street talking about Lug@GT. Heh. You should totally come and hang out. I think it will be educational and fun. As are all lug events. I really like the lug kids. Especially the officers and hardcore ones. They're good.

I think Jason and I are going to go see Mothman tonight. Then possibly go to Cyberia or Karma. I prefer the music at Karma, but I would also prefer to support Jill. I think there is an 80s night starting at the Rarity. That might not be too bad if Jonathan and Ian DJ. Everyone loves them. I do too. I miss 688. Heh. That's not something people thought they'd ever hear. But, I think most everyone does. I am so stressed out. I really need to go dance and stuff. I have my resume basically finished. I guess I will begin the mass deliveries this weekend or next week.

Oh, and I'm sad that the bunny never has any time for me, makes me whiney. Charette is not a word.

Friday 25.01.2002 4:17 PM

Its 4:00am. I can't sleep. I've tried, but, I came home from work and went straight to bed planning to get up a few hours later and work on some things on sifl. I really want to install mysql. But my internet connection freaked out, so I gave up and tried to sleep. I was not successful. I kept laying there thinking that maybe I could fix it. dhclient or something. Its strange how this keeps happening. So, I got up and messed with it. Got connection back. Can't do anything productive. Started messing with some brushes I got for photoshop. I really prefer fireworks, but, photoshop is neat for
I like this one the best
Eh, sort of weird
I can't sleep bored bored bored
experimental graphics and things. I hate the way it does fonts. I actually had to use fireworks in the end to make the thumbails and add the borders around them.
Friday 25.01.2002 4:13 AM

Got zsh working. I just had added the wrong path to etc/shells, so, that's fixed now. Went to fix a really old win98 machine. Its having some weird problems with outlook express. Heh. I accidentally assigned the same ip to an NT server and to a workstation. I broke the whole network. Yea for me. I took down all of the apps on the NT machine, and kicked off everyone who was working in it. I am genius. Hear me cry. Its all better now. I didn't even have to think about why it wasn't working. I just knew I'd assigned an ip incorrectly. I love it when my boss is freaked and I can shell in right there and just up arrow twice, edit one number, restart dhcpd, and its all fix0red. Mmmmm, feels good to fix without leaving office. Ok, I think I should not mess with computers anymore today, not having good luck.
Thursday 24.01.2002 12:59 PM

"People that hate Windows run Linux; People that love Unix run BSD."
Well I am hating BSD right now. Or, what about when BSD hates you? I got convinced to be reet last night and install zsh. Actually, I was using it on a friend's machine and it did this kick ass cool tab complete thing, I was shocked and amazed and instantly in love. I wanted it too! Well, luckily that damn ports tree makes installing all kinds of delicious things sinfully easy. Oh boy. I have sort of had a bad habit of doing the 'make' part, and then forgetting to 'make install' But after about 30 minutes of frustration trying to figure out why I couldn't change my shell to zsh, I was politely reminded that I needed to do that. Sigh. So, got it installed, it was late, I should've already been in bed, but, foolishly, I wanted to continue banging away. So, after reading bunches of faqs, and trying to figure things out on my own, I gave up and went to bed. I got up this morning, and as I often hear in #hackphreak, "My unix b0x is fux0red." Heh. It wouldn't let me login at all - which makes sense, because it was telling me the zsh didn't exist. Then I logged in as root, and looked at ifconfig to make sure my ip address hadn't changed, and I would be able to ssh home from work. dmesg: no route to host, dhclient exiting. Oh joy of joys - no internet connection either. Sigh. I tried telling dhclient to get a lease, and it didn't work. I couldn't remember the syntax for the pump command, and I was late for work. I am embarassed to admit what I did next, but, I really had no idea what was going on, so.... I rebooted sifl. Despite the common knowledge that rebooting doesn't do anything on non windows, it actually fixed it right up. So, now I'm at work, and will attempt to fix. Ugh.
Thursday 24.01.2002 10:02 AM

Had a delicious night's sleep last night. Completely exhausted. Wonderful dreams. Schnell schnell! Yum yum. Lug tomorrow. So much to do. Going to get a haircut at 7:00. I was thinking about cutting it much shorter, but then someone convinced me that I shouldn't. So, it will stay long. I'll probably get 3 or 4 inches cut off, but no one will be able to tell the difference. I printed
London can you wait?
out a picture of myself to bring to the hair salon. Its the best my hair has looked, I think. Actually, a lot of people think that, and have said so. Honestly, my hair has looked basically the same since I was 8. I really want to get more blue+plastic when the hair police return in two weeks, but, I think that's not the best thing when looking for a nice corporate job. I actually worked on my resume. Shocker, eh? Once I get it in .txt, .html and .doc format all nice I'll put it up here for you all to laugh at. I'll also start sending it out in mass mailings to any of you who work at companies I like, so get ready.
Tuesday 22.01.2002 3:50 PM

Mmmmmmm. bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny. Heh. I really need to stop this.
Monday 21.01.2002 1:11 AM

Ooooh, how happy am I! Had lunch with sektie yesterday. She is uber cute. Then went to lug, and learned a lot. I need to really sit and think about what I want to do as far as promotional type stuff. Guess I will have to call the Tecnique and things like that. Also need to make fliers and keep them with me for when I run into people that need to be marketed. There's that car in
Stick it to me
Michele's apartment complex that has the LNX sticker on it. Its parked there ever time we go over, and always in the same place. Makes me feel happy. Jason got LNX stickers for our cars, but, we still have not put them on. Not really sure where it should go. Plus, I should probably have the car washed before I do it. I don't think I'll be making it to the Cisco users group this evening. I am just too busy. I'm also really stressed out, and don't feel like driving to where ever its being held.

The computer show thinigie that we originally thought was at the cobb county civic center is really at the Galleria. Josh L says it isn't worth the cost of admission. I feel bad. I should've checked into it further. I'll probably still
BSDiva!
go, but I need to tell the kids that it's not as great as we had expected.

BSDiva.com is up and running. I don't have any content yet, but I sort of have an idea of how I want it to look. Suggestions for content or style are certainly welcome, feel free to email me. I think I will do articles, the first of which being "When is the right time to give su to your SO?" I've actually done a bit of informal research. Jeff says "Never". Revealing.
Thursday 17.01.2002 3:18 PM

Wow, techromaster sent me a link to the sifl and olly test! As predicted I am Chester. He is my soul mate. Sigh. I just love him so. Oh, that reminds me, I need to get the S&O season 3 DVD pre-ordered, and I really want to email Liam Lynch back, but its been a long time and I don't really have anything
to say. I hadn't really planned on making an entry, I'm so busy, but, I couldn't pass up showing that I am Chester. Of course!

Remember: GT lug tonight. RM 359, GaTech Student Center, 7:00pm. It will rock, 'cause lug is funny. Please don't tell them that I switched to FreeBSD, I think they will call me a heretic and burn me at the stake. Or, something.
Wednesday 16.01.2002

Ok, horrible day at work yet again. I will try to work on my resume later tonight. I really want to make it look like Heidi's, but her's is not really conducive to emailing and faxing. If at all. As far as non-work stuff goes, its been a pretty good week so far. Lug tomorrow night. Cisco meeting thing on thursday. I need to get the details on that again. I figure since I'm looking for a job, I might as well go hang with the Cisco people and observe their strange culture. Thinking about going to some computer show in Marietta on saturday. Cobb Count Civic Center. People are meeting at hugme's house at noon, and probably going to get there around 1:00. Perhaps I can drag along the lug or my roommate. I would love to find a nice cheap machine to mess around with. Sifl and Olly are too important to really experiment on.

Hugme linked me to this weird shit. Good fucking god. I can't even finish reading it I'm so freaked out. Anyway, take a look at it. If any of you need to contact me, I have recently updated my contact page thing, so you don't need to hire an agency to find me or talk to me. Just email. There's even a form [ummm, that you should use, cause its easy and its PHP and I need people to test it out ] .

Tuesday 15.01.2002 4:58 PM

Had a horrible day at work today. I am officially on the market! And I don't mean for your sick fantasies. I'll be working on my resume this week and posting it later. Basically I know networking stuff, hardware and software. That's what I want to do. It makes me happy. My dream job is running those T1 setups they have in all the fancy loft buildings for the residents. I could probably manage 5-10 of those in Atlanta. Or set them up. That would be even more fun. I want a super unix guru genius for a boss, and to be able to mess with lots of things, and figure out how stuff works. I really prefer smaller networks. I don't want to work at an ISP, but I guess I would. Depends on the deal and the company. Why can't I just drive around Atlanta going into homes and businesses and setting up BSD networks for $75,000 a year? I promise I'd be good at it. I'd even wear short skirts and heels if I had to. BSDiva!

In other news, Dustin is a thief.

Monday 14.01.2002 5:30 PM

Cyberia Pictures
Just put Cyberia pictures up from friday night. Getting a little worried about my webspace. Luckily, apache is now working at home, and I'll be able to start storing things there. I haven't done any configuration on it at all really. Had some great PHP victories last week. Need to add PHP support and mysql to sifl at home, and hopefully then I'll be able to get things going. Need to get another domain. Good ones are hard to find Someone suggested BSDiva.com. Its not taken. But, not everyone will get it. Anyway, go check out the cyberia pictures. Will update more later.
Sunday 13.01.2002 7:10 PM

Mmm, I have been sleeping too much lately. Mr. Dress to Opress is funny. He makes me laugh. He's so into art and modernism and things like that. Things I typically associate with pretentious assholes, but he seems quite nice. We'll see. I am quick to hate people once I get to know them.
ph33r m3!!!!

Had lug last night. Heh, those kids are funny. Someone suggested a lan party for trading linux warez. Heh, funny. Ola is really nice and scandanavian or whatever. I need to email him and beg for some stuff. I need a better understanding of DNS before I beg though. I don't know if he can even do what I need. Fuck, I need to register another domain soon. I also need another damn machine. I think sifl isn't really adequate as he is now. So much to do. Its overwhelming. I just want to get in bed and sleep for like 4 days. Really need something less stressful to be going on. Need more fun. Maybe I will go out friday night to cyberia or something.

Feel like nothing will ever be finished. I keep wondering why I haven't accomplished more, and that I need to stop wasting time, but, then I can't really figure out what I'm wasting time on. Oh well, I'll get things how I want them to be eventually.
Thursday 10.01.2002 12:06 PM

Messing with this nmap thing. Its sort of cool. I need a list of ports and what they all do. I'm sure there is one to suit my needs on the web. I am so fucking happy that gimp works now and I can edit images and do screen shots. Again - windowmaker is a really beautiful window manager. It makes me happy just to look at it.

Here are my two current problems though. I think they lie somewhere in the mystery that is sshd. First, when I shell into my home machine using putty on windows, it lets me use it for about 30 minutes and then says, "error: failed host key check" Very strange. Second, scp doesn't seem to work with winscp. I haven't tried it command line, I don't really know the commands for it. So, the way I got the screen shot on to my other computer
at home was to ftp from bsd to my webhost [dreamhost] drop it there, and then go back with windows and ftp it back to myself. Basically I needed to transfer a file 2 feet, and ended up having to transfer it to california to actually get it. Not good. Samba? Well, that would be cool, but I need to be able to get files off of the home machine no matter where I am. Sigh. I started using the newest version of putty, so, that's a good thing, because I'm using ssh2. Ugh. Anyway, it will all get fixed. I am tempted to reinstall, but I have not had the best luck when doing things like that.

I added aim stuff to my contact page, feel free to make it bend to your will, I haven't tested it with any of the third party aim clients like gaim and tik, but I will try when I get home.
Wednesday 09.01.2002 1:34 PM

Screenshot!!!!

So, finally! Between kendra on #hackphreak and plord on aim, gimp is now installed and working. I am so happy. Kendra really rocks cause geek chicks are always the best. plord is my friend cause he will sit there andsay 'make' 'now make install' a hundred times until it happens. Yea! Here is my screenshot. I am too tired to make anymore, I want to sleep. But, tomorrow after lug I will be making all kinds of cool stuff. Yea!

Wednesday 09.01.2002 1:30 AM

The ultimate hamburglar

Dave Thomas died today. I am going to have a Wendy's cheeseburger and french fries for lunch in his honor. I was never really into Wendy's, but, I love red meat, and he seemed like a nice man. Plord said something about that's what happens when you eat food like that. Heh. French fries are from heaven. I'm currently working on a new content section. Its mainly for my own amusement, but since I don't have lj to post in anymore, I sort of need an outlet. It should be up within the next week or so.

Now, let's talk about my computer woes. I am so upset. I tried installing gimp last night, and it totally did not work. I just wanted to take a screenshot of the pretty windowmaker goodness, but I don't know how to do that without gimp. Sigh. I sort of am starting to miss linux. Will have to practice more. I really don't want to give up on bsd. I like some parts of it, but, other stuff is really frustrating. I still haven't ever had debian on my own machine. So, that is sort of tempting too. Lug @ GT officers meeting tomorrow. Regular meetings start next week. If you're reading this, I expect you to be there. I am very excited about the lug events coming up. They voted me in unanimously. I don't think they understand that being in charge of promoting lug is pretty much what I was meant to do in life. I am enthusiastic.

Oh, feh.

Jason and I are probably going to have a Valentine's Day party to keep us from remembering how incredibly, horribly single we are. So, most everyone who knows where we live is invited. I will put up more information as we plan things. I think Billy said he was interested in helping, so between the 3 of us, and our wacky ass friends, it should be big fun.

Tuesday 08.01.2002 1:09 PM

Strange little thing. I was doing some stuff for work - there appears to be some huge DNS problem that is all my fault. And I wanted to maximize my grepping abilities, so I went to look for a man page or something. I searched google, and the second entry that came up was sailormoon.org. I took a screen shot. So werid. Click my searchable goodness
Monday 07.01.2002 10:23 AM

So, here is a bit of me opening up. Dangerous, but - I like to live on the edge, as we've seen. I am so happy right now. Feel very liberated and optimistic. Listening to künstliche welten. It makes me so happy. Not that naive, fooled happy either. A real and genuine happy. So, I feel good lately. Almost afraid to say it, but, I do. Someone suggested maybe I'm in love. I don't think that's true. But, I am out of hate.
Monday 07.01.2002 0:42 AM

Wow, just got home from Lauren's housewarming party. What a bit of insanity. Dustin went with me for a bit. Insert nice things about him here. The pictures are a little insane. Lauren's housewarming pictures.
Sunday 06.01.2002 4:53 AM

Well, goodness. Christmas and New Year's are over, and I'm back home in Atlanta. I am still trying to catch up on email that accumuliated while I was away. I had a wonderful time visiting my family in florida.

I met up with Jen and Irma from the Jacksonville elist and they took me out to their 80's night on friday and the goth night at the Imperial on saturday. The 80's night was a similar crowd and playlist to the 80s night here at the Masquerade. I had a great time, and got all sweaty dancing.

I can't remember the name of the club night at the Imperial, but it was really quite nice. It had a lot of the same atmosphere as 688 did. But, it wasn't disgusting and dirty and gross. I met a few of Irma and Jen's friends, and everyone was so very nice. The scene kids there are really just like the scene kids here.

Jen has convinced some of the other Jacksonvillers that my alter-ego is one "Mistress Cyberotica" and that I run a pay porn site. In actuality, I don't even have apache installed on sifl yet. I also need to register a new domain. I can't want to make sifl the hardcore webserving, firewalling, network address translating powerhouse that he longs to be. Anyway, the Jacksonville kids are wonderful, and I really appreciate them being so friendly. Thank you.

Last night I went out with Dustin a bit. He wouldn't let me keep any of the pictures, so, I don't have those to show. But, he did give me a good introduction to the web imaging system he is working on. Its really incredible. I am so impressed with people who aren't afraid of programming. It terrifies me and makes me want to cry.

I have so much to do at work and at home. Jason cleaned the apartment and it looks shockingly sparse. I need to make my room look that way too. I need to put the ram I got in sifl, and check into getting some more, actually. I think prices on ram will start going back up soon. I really relaxed over the holidays, and now I need to get a million things done. I think I am going to go out to Cyberia tonight, and hopefully meeting up with some out of town guests. Might even go to the 2600 meeting tonight at Lenox. I think its at 7.30 or something. Not totally sure. The first Lug meeting is on wednesday. I am so excited. I need to make up some fliers, and plan some events. I can't wait to start doing some uber promoting.

Friday 04.01.2002 4:14 PM

Happy new year and stuff. Work tomorrow. I will update more then. For now, here are pictures from last night. New Year's Eve.
Tuesday 01.01.2002 11:22 PM