But, I really am thankful that I know you because you are one of the biggest motivations for me to become a genius and take over the world. Someday I will rule your lame ass. Just wait, fucker.

Secret plan will finish. 12312002 plan will finish and I will be two huge steps closer to perfection. I can't be stopped. Your negativity just makes me exponentially stronger, more motivated and more enthusiastic.

I am strong and smart. I am fast and precise. I am efficient and built to be the ultimate social engineer. And I look amazing doing it. I challenge you to find someone better than me at what I do. Soon I'll be better than you at what you do, too.

So, I got sifl all fix0red up. He is in tip top shape. He is glad to meet you. Feel free to visit BSDiva.com and leave him your best wishes. I couldn't get FreeBSD to compile, so hello Theo! I like the 2.8 blowfish the best, and honestly the 3.1 fishes are icky gross. But, hey - I've always got the wireframe daemon. We are friends. I feel great that sifl is so happy. Makes me smile. I love it when he is operating properly and serving up delicious mail and web. He is my best friend in the whole world. No, you can't have a BSDiva.com shell.

One of us has a secret admirer. Guess which of us it is. Maybe it's both. Wouldn't that be nice? I've been google stalking you and you don't know I know who you are. Hunter becomes the hunted and all that. We have agents in common, I think. I'm so good with mystery and intrigue. Mmmmm, I would make the best spy. Attempt to message me tomorrow. I fear your identity is no longer secret. If I were the Enemy, would that put you in my apartment?

I turn everything into espionage. Have you noticed that about me?

What sort of camouflage is this, black and white?
Hiding in an oreo factory?
Could be.

Ahhh, speaking of pandas - I so want to talk to Liam Lynch again. I wonder if he is still in Tennessee. I sort of feel like I should kidnap him and hide him in my closet. He could sing me funny songs when I am sad. Sigh. Chester is the perfect boy for me... so, it naturally follows that Liam has to at least be my friend - or something.

So, still working on lots of sites. I really need a standard job. I miss big networked fun. My life is so busy though. I can't imagine finding 8 extra hours in every day. Crunch really completes my world. I took a kickboxing today. We learned new moves. Block and a back kick. Don't find yourself alone with me in a dark alley. Oh no.

Thinking of Karma tomorrow night. We shall see. As I said to Shane at MJQ - I love to rock.

Assuming all is fair in love and war.... In war, what if one party begins to see their opponent no longer as something to destroy and conquer, but instead as a like mind, in a difficult and overwhelming situation? Can that relationship ever be taken fully from adversarial to affectionate? Would you ever be able to trust someone who was previously strategic and calculated and planning to kill you? Sigh.

So strange how many things are going on. Sifl needs to be reinstalled - again. I might switch to OpenBSD, instead of using Free. Its easier to upgrade supposedly. Sigh. I really need to get BSDiva.com up and running somewhere, and I certainly can't host that on linux. I will not be lame! Roar!

So much to do I can't even start. At least I'm happy.

I think I have had a revelation. I'd never seen 9 1/2 Weeks before. I saw it tonight. It was on VH1. It was obvious they edited out some of the good parts.

I'm so shocked, I don't know what to say. I feel like this is some sort of defining moment or something. Why didn't anyone tell me about this before? I don't know where to begin. I enjoyed the food sex part, but I liked the ice sex part better. But, my favourite of all was when they were in the department store and he said "spread your legs for daddy" It takes a real man to say something like that. Oh, wait... that part is only slightly better than when they're in the concrete boutique and she says "Aren't you going to even ask me if I like these clothes?" And he smiles and says "no." Wow, that's damn good. That part has to be seen though - I can't convey its perfection.

Where are the men like this? I am deeply, deeply single. Hardcore single. Incredibly, definitely, 100% single. Tell me what I have to do to find someone like that. The 1980s style wall street money, and the young Mickey Rourke good looks aren't even required. Where are the men with the confidence and self-assurance to do these things, and be this way? I don't think they even exist.