I'm redesigning everything. Please be patient.
I deleted my livejournal
so you'll have to check here for my latest technical fiascoes
and declarations of love for Sifl and Olly. |
Sifl is doing well. Upgraded to FreeBSD 4.6. Fixing all of the security
issues is done. Apache is not even installed for now. But at least
I'm secure. I've been working on him all day. I love him so. |
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Saturday 29.06.2002 11:30 PM
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The bodies in my apartment :
Mine, at computer. Reading this
and this.
Preparing to reinstall sifl. I always get nervous before a new install.
Especially on my gateway. If I fuck up, or take too long, I won't
have a net connection. That MAC is the one registered with the cable
company, so its the only one that can get an IP. Quote : Both
rc.conf and rc.network are ipf-aware. To cause ipf to start during
the initial network setup, the following lines need to be added
to /etc/rc.conf: ipfilter_enable="YES" ipfilter_flags=""
Jason, asleep in his room. He's hosting the pride pool party
tonight, so he needs to get his lame ass out of bed. Quote
: Ummm, Sherrod...? Heidi had a little too much to drink -
we got kicked out of the club - can she sleep on the couch?
Heidi, passed out on my couch. Apparently she had way too
much to drink last night. It took her nearly 30 minutes to get
up the stairs. Quote : How do you know when its time to get
your stomach pumped?
Suede, sleeping on the floor next to me. She got all fat
from being in Florida and getting lots of treats. She looks cute.
I've always thought she was too skinny. Quote : *lick lick
lick*
Heh, kids today. Its almost noon, losers. Its time to revamp
unix servers, and fix secure shell applications! Unf!
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Saturday 29.06.2002 11:30 AM
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Christ. Between the Apache
holes and the ssh issues, I have to reinstall sifl, my FreeBSD
machine. He is important because he hosts BSDiva.
I'm going to do it tomorrow. There is an apache worm, and an OpenSSH
vulnerability to be fixed. And there are different things to
do for FreeBSD on sifl and, then I want to fix OpenBSD on morphine.
Wah. Morphine isn't even connected to the net right now because
of it. I hate it. I miss him so. I start to feel very scared and
closed off when I don't have several unix shells spread all over
the country, available to me at a moment's notice. Sigh. Poor computers.
They need much love. Theo is an ass.
And, umm, these boys are cute. Kyle and Troy Mercury. They're
trying to win some contest. I like the one in the tie, although
it appears that the other one listens to better music. Go vote
for them here
and here.
I got a new toy while in Florida. Its a Brak doll. I accidentally
broke off his head, but I glued it back on. He is my boyfriend.
He will be on TV a lot. A lot of people commented on the Mr. Bubble
t shirt I wore on SherrodTV
the other day. Heh. Apparently I look like a 13 year old. Yea!
I got that shirt in 1994 by sending in $6.95 and three proofs-of-purchase.
Its a great shirt. Rock!
Also, we are having a Gay Pride Pool Party
tomorrow. Feel free to bring friends. Don't forget to bring a
towel.
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Saturday 29.06.2002 0:40 AM
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I miss Adam. I think I should call him or something... |
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Thursday 27.06.2002 0:00 AM
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I had a great time in Florida. It was so wonderful to see my family
and hang out with my friends down there. I love them so. The club
scene in Jacksonville and Orlando is more fun than Atlanta, to me.
The kids are sort of nicer in a way. Jen took me to lots of shops
and stuff, and John and Alan made me giggle. Alan even danced with
me at Das Machine. Just to make sure everyone is made well aware
- the dj at Das Machine last week was the most horrible dj I have
ever experienced, and at one point I honestly felt as if he was
punishing me - and not in the good way.
I didn't take any pictures. I was too busy having a good time.
It really helped my outlook on life, and I'm all smiley and stuff
now. Jen, Alan and John are going to Savannah on July 5th. I'm
going too, and I've got Heidi and Jason pretty much on the hook
for it as well. After that, we're all going to drive back up here
and spend the weekend in the pool, and doing wacky stuff. I'm
excited.
Anyway, I'm home now, and still trying to catch up on email.
If you've emailed me in the past two weeks or so, and haven't
gotten a response, the best thing to do is to contact
me on aim and just talk to me there.
I think its funny and revealing when someone says 'vis a vis'.
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Wednesday 26.06.2002 11:38 PM
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I'm home. |
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Tuesday 25.06.2002 6:27 PM
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I had a great night - Yea for surprise visitors. I'll be in Florida
visiting Bob and getting help on the secret plan. If you live in
Jacksonville, expect to see me out. I should be back in a week or
so. Kisses. |
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Saturday 15.06.2002 10:50 AM
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Tee hee. How funny, Mike
made the best post
in his livejournal. There is a little haircutting
picture show he did. I may steal the idea next time I cut my
hair. He is my friend. I'm glad I know him, he makes me smile lots.
I wish he were around right now so I could get some photoshop help.
Apop is right - Photoshop sucks.
And, from the violence-on-my-mind department: You are no match
for me. I'm much stronger than I look, and I don't mean physically.
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Friday 14.06.2002 7:27 AM
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I had a very stressful day today. Wrangling with all the computers
in my life is getting to be more taxing than usual. Had a lovely
talk with a friend that cheered me up a lot though. I have so much
to do, its really overwhelming. I made a picture of myself as a
powerpuff girl using the PowerPuff
Picture Studio. I think its pretty accurate. My eyes aren't
that dark, but everything else is quite right. Lots more to do tomorrow.
I think Brian is coming to town... maybe...? Who knows. I don't
even think he has my phone number.
Don't forget - there is a Sloan Square Pool party here on Friday.
Feel free to come. I'll be there around 10pm. Bring a swim suit
and towel. Email me if you
need more info. |
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Thursday 13.06.2002 3:38 AM
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He says I am brilliant and beautiful and have perfect hair. |
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Wednesday 12.06.2002 1:49 AM
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I added another photo gallery of me. Most of them are from the past
two months, but there are three or four old ones thrown in too.
So, I called it Something Blue,
because that seems to be the only commonality between them. Well,
that and my image in them - but who cares about that? Be warned,
some of them are very unattractive. I sort of like that though.
I enjoy the variances. If I'm wearing something white and baggy
you know that I just got up, and those are my PJs. Tee hee. There
is also a lovely series where I'm enacting different emotions like
Eric on
his site. The difference is that mine are umm, not PG rated. You'll
just have to guess what I'm trying to convey. Tee hee. |
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Wednesday 12.06.2002 1:09 AM
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You know how some people say "I need a cigarette," or
"wow, I need a drink," when they're stressed out? Well
- I need an appointment.
Sigh. Only 5 people in the whole world know what that means, and
none of them can even help me. Wah! |
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Monday 10.06.2002 4:29 AM
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This is the worst time of day for me. Late and I'm not sleepy. I
hate it. It depresses me. Had a lovely night until I had to defend
myself to someone who is supposed to love me unconditionally. Another
feeling I hate. Hard to have hope of things getting better when
certain dynamics will never go away. After that I did what I always
do when I feel bad - made it worse. Emotional masochism at its ultimate
and most refined condition. Definitely time spent on the Speedway.
I've mostly given up on people that haven't been around for the
past year or so. Anyone who has suffered me through this year is
here to stay, I think. It seems like I should just devote myself
to mainly emotionless and certainly romanceless pursuits. I hate
to feign indifference, but you give me no choice. What am I supposed
to do? Be upset that you're not doing what I want you to? I think
I am scared, and others are scared. Instead of making decisions
and taking actions, we prefer the safety of non-progress. The safety
of other things and other people and other possibilities. Everybody
loves a mystery, and we're human too.
I call Brian daily. I have an intimate relationship with his answering
machine. In fact, I think I will go call it again now, and leave
a message.
Finally, some meta meta. A lot of people have mentioned that they
read my site. I'm flattered, and I appreciate that. Its makes me
happy. And it doesn't hurt that all of them have been devastatingly
handsome young men. I notice that the things I've said here have
become increasingly more personal. I made a concious effort not
to that for a long time, and to keep my subjects to the polite and
non descript. I was able to do that because one of my dear friends
was the only outlet I needed to express myself. Unfortunately, its
not enough anymore. I need someone to talk to, and I don't really
have anyone - so, now its all of you. |
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Monday 10.06.2002 4:18 AM
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Yesterday was a really fun day. Weeeeee. Swimming
and CPK and stuff. Plus I got the snow white hair bow thing.
Mmmmm. Yea! |
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Sunday 09.06.2002 3:19 PM
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I
wanna talk to you. I keep thinking it over and over. Then I
realize how stupid I am. Try to find meaning in the mystery. Intent
against accident. Secret. I believe in you. I am guilty of not knowing
my audience. But, luckily that is all I am guilty of.
Yesterday I had many meetings, contributing to tons of work I
will have to get done today. I bought cool supplies to help with
the secret plan. Its going along really well. I am so proud of
myself for accomplishing this much so far. But, again - no celebrations
or congratultions until full completion.
Today will be difficult and long. Must visit Hairpolice, must
do errands and create things, while somehow finding a way to get
to CPK to visit Julian. Sigh. I need a vacation. I think I will
go to florida saturday, visit dear old dad and have him help me
with secret plan. He will have good advice. Plus, Jackie will
cook for me. Mmmmm.
I am the resurrection and I am the life
I couldn't ever bring myself
To hate you as I'd
Like
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Saturday 08.06.2002 2:30 PM
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This is far too early for the unemployed to be waking up. Meetings
today. 2600 and karma tonight. Most likely followed by swimming.
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Friday 07.06.2002 9:43 AM
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I'm sleepy. I really wanted to go to masq 80s tonight, but I'm just
too tired. Went over to Heather's for a bit this afternoon. Then
worked on secret plan. Spent 3 hours and $50. Going to be a lot
of work. But, the satisfaction of success is an enormous motivator.
There are lots of things I want to say. |
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Friday 07.06.2002 0:55 AM
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Vampire Omelette Kitten Cake |
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Thursday 06.06.2002 12:01 PM
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Mmmm, had a great super-secret plan meeting last night. It was cool.
I have enthusiasm. I will not reveal the plan until it is complete.
Like all good villains I know better than to celebrate during the
execution of the plan. I will wait until success is achieved and
then unleash my cacophonous laughter upon the devastated and shocked
entirety of mankind. This is a good plan. Wow. I still marvel at
its genius. I'm excited.
Today I got my eyebrows done and my hair cut. I am hoping that Heather
will have time to dye it for me sometime this week. I have roots
[and I don't mean super user access. Heh. I am lame!] Anyway...
I dunno. Lots of things going on. Revelations and situations and
events all happening for me personally lately, and to come.
And finally - I'm just glad that you're alive. |
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Wednesday 05.06.2002 4:13 PM
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Oh! The frustration! I hate playing these games. How can someone
quote T.S. Elliot and be complex, and interesting and still... have
hundreds of online profiles at matchmaking sites...? And actually
consider the most ridiculously generic women. I hate this stupid
feeling. Must overcome, must not crush. |
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Monday 03.06.2002 5:41 PM
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Well, swimming was ever so much fun last night. We will have many
more swimming parties in the future. I've talked with some people
- Anna, Butch, Lauren - and we're so disappointed in the club scene
in Atlanta, and the lack of options [ie, its Chamber or little else]
that swim parties will be the new summer fun event. Every friday
night that Karma is not having Jonathan and Ian DJ, I'll be at the
pool, and you're invited. So that means, Sloan Square pool, June
14th, 10pm, bring a towel and swim suit. Yea!
The cool things about swim parties: You get to talk with your
friends without having to scream over industrial music. You don't
have to dress up, because you're just going to get wet and look
awful anyway. You can gather around ye old pool steps and hear
tales of love and adventure. Atlanta is hot in the summer, the
pool is not. And - Its FREE!
Click the thumbnail if you want to see the very unflattering
pictures from last night. Heh.
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Sunday 02.06.2002 6:45 PM
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We're having a swimming party tonight around 10:00 at sloan square.
Yea! Bring a bathing suit and a towel.1247 and some other kids are
going to be there. Feel free to stop by. Call me or email
if you need directions. |
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Saturday 01.06.2002 8:13 PM
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Mmmm. I become more enamoured every time I talk to him. Why am I
only attracted to men like this? For the past year or so they've
all been a catalyst. No happy sweetness. Just vocal, volatile, opinionated,
burning hot with ideas and reasoning and armed with a lifetime of
personal self-analysis. I compare one relationship to matter and
anti-matter. He and I should not have been in the same city, much
less the same room. We're lucky we never caused any sort of wide
scale disaster. I always sort of thought a huge hole would open
up in the earth and swallow us everytime I saw him.
Well, back to breaking KDE.
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Saturday 01.06.2002 0:28 AM
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