You have an enormous gourmet kitchen. You're standing in front
of a stove. There are pots on all 4 burners. There is something
baking in the oven, something broiling in the broiler. There is
bread warming in the bread warmer. There is coffee brewing. There
is something in the microwave. In the refridgerator, desert is
chilling, dough is rising. The freezer contains glasses being
expertly chilled. All day you've been stirring each pot and tending
to each dish. You're focused,
but filled with anticipation.
Numerous times in my life people have said "wow, you have
excellent timing." I'm not really surprised anymore, now
that I hear it and experience it so often. I seem to have a gift
for timing. |
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Tuesday 30.09.2003 8:35 PM
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I want to go to Cleveland. Pouting now. |
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Monday 29.09.2003 11:56 PM
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I just read on Morrissey-Tour.com
that my beloved is recording a new album starting October 5th.
How long does it take to record an album? When can I purchase,
and when the hell will he start touring? No doubt there will be
a new single called "James, she's icy to the core"
Also, there is a sort of hot picture of me from last night, located
here.
I cut my bangs too short. |
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Monday 29.09.2003 1:31 AM
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Just so you're all aware - I love The Who. |
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Tuesday 28.10.2003 2:38 PM
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Well after feeling a bit better last night, of course everything
went to hell.
Sifl is rocking so hardcore, I can't believe it. Just a bit of
cable management to do, and things will be well in order. I can't
wait for November 1st. I'm going to celebrate by installing OpenBSD
3.4, what fun. I installed 3.3 on valentine's day. I like to upgrade
on holidays and special occasions.
I can't really convey the motorcycles, so I'm going get dressed
and go take pictures of them. Then you'll see. They're everywhere.
I mean - EVERYwhere. All day I hear 'loud pipes,' and I'm not
even in the downtown area. The best thing about Reno is the weather.
So far it has been amazing and beautiful everyday. Summers here
are superior to the south a thousand fold, winter may prove to
be a different story. I think the second best thing about Reno
is that there seems to be an event happening at every moment.
Every day is some special convention or festival or launching
of some airborne vessel. Its nice... people are always from out
of town and in party mode. Very festive city. Off I go... |
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Saturday 27.09.2003 5:56 PM
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I'm feeling a little better now. Thank you for sending me emails
and stuff. Sifl is back. Sifl is my obsd firewall, and I love
him so much. I'm so glad he's working again. Still deciding between
postfix and qmail for BSDiva.com email. We'll see. |
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Friday 26.09.2003 8:27 PM
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I had a bit of a rough day today. By rough I mean sitting in a
parking lot, crying in my car, on the cellphone with my mother.
Perhaps I'm greedy in wanting some sort of normalcy and stability
in my life. It seems like it never really happens. Emotions are
a huge sign of weakness - perhaps the biggest sign, in fact. Because
I find weakness to be so terribly unattractive, I never really
want to exhibit it myself. Even stating that publically makes
me a little uncomfortable. So, sitting here in my mild mental
discomfort, I'm having a little anxiety attack, wishing any one
of my favourites were around. |
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Thursday 25.09.2003 11:38 PM
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Dogs rule. Please notice the photo to the right. The ultimate
in canine costumery. Way to rock, mongrels. Gosh! My dog Suede
has a halloween costume. She looks sort of like a little monastery
dog in it though... and it glows in the dark which freaks her
out.
I had a really interesting day at work today. Very busy. The rest
of this week I will have tons to do. I keep trying to get things
done all frantic and determined like, but I forget that it won't
ever really end. The list of things I have to do will keep getting
longer. Like pee wee 'and knitting, and knitting and knitting...'
until the internet blows up and I don't have a job anymore.
Andrew called me today and I vehemently insisted I would call
him back. But, I didn't and now its midnightPST, which is 3amEST.
Ugh. I feel terrible. I have a bad habit of this. Its not that
I forget, its just that it gets to be later than I thought,
then throw in interesting time differences.... ugh.
Teenage Fanclub released a greatest hits CD. I've been listening
to a lot of TF and Suede and Gene lately. Seth also left David
Bowie Young
Americans in my CD player. I listen to my britpop just as
loud as I listen to my noise. When you examine parts of my personality
individually, its relatively general and predicable - when you
examine them all at once, its pretty terrifying and offensive.
Several times a day I think "well, I've certainly learned
my lesson." Its never true though.
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Tuesday 23.09.2003 11:56 PM
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I had an interesting and unexpected weekend. My apartment is feeling
particularly empty right now. I didn't get as much sewing done
as I had wanted to, but I did make it to the happy super sale
at the sewing store and I got lots of patterns for 99cents. I
had a huge strawberry milkshake with dinner, for me that is the
equivalent of 4 valium.
It knocked me on my ass hardcore. One of the interesting things
I sort of like about me is that I'm incredibly sensitive to sugar
and caffeine and carbs. It can be sort of dangerous though if
I don't have somewhere to safely collapse when the glucose coma
kicks in. I don't really know what's going on. I'm all disoriented.
Probably time to go back to bed... |
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Monday 22.09.2003 0:30 AM
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Ooops, I forgot one thing.... I am rocking out with Mr. Gage.
Thanks. :] |
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Thursday 18.09.2003 0:43 AM
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Sigh. Today in #insub cj_ took his ball and went home. Normally
I consider him a total dick who needs a hot sunshine injection,
but today when that happened I got a little upset. So, cj_ - quit
it please come back because I sometimes like your angst, etc.
Also, where the fuck has hepper been? Also, I love tam. Damn she's
great.
#whiteboard - Everyone just says things that are mental. Unfurl
is funny and makes me giggle, seth is just all 'omg, hi, my
name is seth, I am mental, gangsta rap, etc etc, other stuff
that doesn't make sense, non-sequitors, etc etc.' Its like he's
a speed freak hopped up on valium. Also, eric is 'idb'. And
that's the report for today.
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Thursday 18.09.2003 0:40 AM
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I'm never going to shup up about the sewing machine. Its the best
thing ever. HA! Vogue makes Issey
Miyake, Anna
Sui, Oscar
de la Renta and all kinds of super cool vintage
stuff. Even corset-esque
tops. I wonder who sells boning. Sewing is the new .com. Sewing
has no security issues. Sewing is fun because after sitting in
front of a computer for hours, you have nothing - whereas sitting
in front of a sewing machine for hours leaves you with cool stuff
that you can wear. I bought this
pattern too. I'm going to make new cushions for my dining
room chairs. The current ones are boring white. I am going to
make some in a cool asian brocade satin, probably silver or black.
Sewing is the happiest thing ever. Feel free to come over and
I will teach you to sew. See my smiling face? Totally! |
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Tuesday 16.09.2003 11:50 PM
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This is my sewing machine. Its better than crack. I can sew
button holes and attatch buttons. Seriously - I did it last
night. My sewing machine is so awesome. Just wait until you
start receiving hand crafted... ummm... things from me. God,
I love the sewing machine. This is the best purchase since my
acrylic chairs. I stare at them both lovingly. At this moment
in time... sewing machine > computer.
This
is the pattern I got to make. I got a green dragon satin, its
pretty. LIKE ME!
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Tuesday 16.09.2003 9:40 PM
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The number one thing I want right now - is for you to shut the
fuck up. And also to sew. I had a great day today. No - really.
Work was productive and fun despite being super busy and hectic.
I like that. I like the feel of progress. More tomorrow. I think
I will wear something scary. I spent a lot of money at the sewing
store today. It was great. I think I am going to take a class
at the community college. Wow... a sewing class. STRAIGHT As FOR
ME!~!!!~!! |
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Tuesday 16.09.2003 9:23 PM
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Today was a really exhausting day. Not in the good way. God.
Ugh. Having a hard time making coherent sentences. I got my
sewing machine today. I am too tired to play with it, however.
Hopefully tomorrow after work I can go get some fabric and thread
and start making cool stuff.
I found this picture of Olly dressed as the Next Canadian Dracula.
I like it a lot. It makes me happy.
I'm going to be in Atlanta October 9-14. Email me if you want
to see me. I don't have any plans other than seeing my friends
and my dog and my mom. Also, a lot of shopping is likely. Right.
I must sleep.
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Tuesday 16.09.2003 0:32 AM
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This
is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen in my life.
If you don't buy it for me, you should buy it for yourself and
send me pictures of you playing it. Eventhough I hate musicians,
I love a good piece of acrylic.
Butch sent me Swayzak - In the Car Crash. I have been listening
to them for a while, but I didn't have this song. He said it reminded
him of me. I like it. I think it reminds me of me too. |
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Monday 15.09.2003 0:04 AM
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I'm incredibly depressed. You might find that unusual, I don't
know. I can never tell how well I hide it. Actually, I am not
depressed - I am distraught.
My direct deposit went through a few days early. I could interpret
this as a sign that I should apply liberal amounts of retail therapy.
I have not decided.
What's your greatest love in life? |
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Saturday 13.09.2003 11:53 PM
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I'm going crazy again. I'm scared. Sink or swim. |
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Saturday 13.09.2003 6:46 PM
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There's nothing I can do to make you listen. I will never be able
to shake you hard enough to get you out of that coma....
again.
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Thursday 11.09.2003 11:32 PM
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JamesW: i'll never make that mistake
again.
GirlVinyl: The only second chance
you get is to make a mistake
twice.
JamesW: i went outside today and
met a nice piece of sidewalk. i'd like to introduce your face
to it.
GirlVinyl: I hope that meeting was
violent, Mr. Willard
JamesW: that's what love is for.
GirlVinyl: Thank you for keeping
me current
JamesW: alternating or direct?
GirlVinyl: Alternating, of course.
JamesW: i thought that you were
binary
GirlVinyl: Exactly.
JamesW: alternating should not be
an option
GirlVinyl: Alternating
between two antithetical extremes.
JamesW: you are so smart
GirlVinyl: You are so...
GirlVinyl: pretty when you're faithful
to me |
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Thursday 11.09.2003 10:37 PM
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Sigh. I can't believe this has to be said, you big idiot. If I
send you an SMS it means two things have happened. 1. You have
an SMS-enabled cellphone and I know the number. 2. I was thinking
about you and wanted to let you know. Why are you stupid? |
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Sunday 07.09.2003 5:38 PM
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Sometimes I wish I weren't so vehemently anti-comment so I could
see what you might have to say about the quote of the day:
"sometimes I wish you would just snap out of it and act normal,
even if only for a short while" |
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Sunday 07.09.2003 0:42 AM
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Going to fly vicariously
through others in 5 hours.
Song of the day: Jawbox - Spitbite.
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Saturday 06.09.2003 0:07 AM
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A poem:
Sewing machine. Sewing machine. Sewing machine.
10 days 'til arrival.
Sew excited. |
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Thursday 04.09.2003 11:10 PM
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I've been making a lot of CDs lately. If you want to trade, make
and send me a CD and I'll mail you one in return. I don't talk
about music very much. This way you can actually hear what I listen
to.
I already owe CDs [or some sort of periodical publication] to
James Willard and Chris Abad. I'm going to talk about 36Dollars
tomorrow and how great it is.
Sherrod
PO BOX 18582
Reno, NV 89511 |
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Wednesday 03.09.2003 11:59 PM
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"If there's been a shooting or stabbing here, it's been infrequent."
The Clermont
has been sold. Hopefully it won't change, but that's a completely
unrealistic hope in my favourite city. GG Allin wrote a song
about it, I've been denied entrance to it only once - I wasn't
old enough. I've gone there on Valentine's day. I've seen friends
be pummeled by huge breasts there, as well as kissed boys there.
Whenever I knew I'd be going to the Clermont, I thought "oh!
Don't forget to wear tights!" I once went and upon sitting
down and feeling the cold vinyl seat hit my naked thigh I immediately
felt dirty.
I remember my first time there, but more vividly I remember
the first time it was decided I would go there. A Clermonter's
eyes will light up if you inquire about it and say you've never
been. People love to take other people to the Clermont. Its
some sort of southern urban ritual. You've never been? Oh...
you just have to go to the Clermont. I think I was lured
there with the promise of hot rab. Which is silly because how
could I oogle boys when there were naked women assualting my
friends with their... ahem - parts.
I would describe it like this to people who had never been,
"Imagine posters of corvettes on the wall, mismatched frames,
unlevel floor, low ceiling, wood paneling on the walls - its
the feeling of being inside a double wide trailer, when in fact
you're in a circa 1920s historic building. Then the added spectacle
of incredibly trashy women, dancing topless to music from a
jukebox, because there was neither room nor money for a DJ.
I can't describe Blondie. You'll have to find that out on your
own."
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Wednesday 03.09.2003 9:52 PM
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A missive to our mtelevision friends.
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Dear MTV,
When reporting tales of the numerous hip hop stars and
washed up R&B artists being arrested and jailed
in Dekalb county, Ga as of late, please be advised that
the L is silent.
Regards,
Sherrod
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Wednesday 03.09.2003 2:38 AM
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I can't complain - though I'm wrapped up in chains.
I can't complain.
Everybody's got the right to be free - but that's not me. |
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Tuesday 02.09.2003 7:49 PM
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Tonight I saw a band play, then I hit on the drummer. I looked
like this. |
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Monday 01.09.2003 3:51 AM
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